A lot has changed in the past 2 years. I have changed. Some good some bad, but I was a complete mess when Tom died. Grief changes people in unexpected and sometimes unpleasant ways for sure. Now though? Wow, I can say I have really grown a lot. I don't like all the decisions I have made in the past two years, but I like the person I am now. I still have more growing and evolving to do, but let's be honest, we all should be trying on a constant basis to better ourselves. I have been getting my life in order and it still has a few areas I need to focus on, like where I want to settle down and buy a house, but seeing all the other things I've come through that just doesn't seem like such a big deal. I mean it's still a difficult decision for me, but it's one that is fixable if I later realize I made the wrong choice. I keep trying to see the silver-lining in everything. Sometimes it works and other times I need to be reminded by others. I'm glad that I have some great "others" in my life. I am very blessed.