Wednesday, July 30, 2014

My Last Letter to Tommy

Tommy, I think it's time. I think it's been time for a little while now. Time write another post here, likely my final post. I love you Tommy. Through all the good and all the bad. All the laughter and all the pain. That will never change. You were my first love and the father of our two amazing children. We still talk of you often and remember you always. We went away for your birthday and celebrated the way I think we would have if you were still here. But it's been just over 4 years now since you died and so much has (obviously) changed. I spoke with one of your friends in April and it changed me. Drastically. Some of it was for the best and some I'm still working through. I'll get there. The point is that with that change in me I have realized it's time to say goodbye to this blog, not that I have posted in a long time. I have many partial letters/ posts sitting as drafts that I just never could quite finish. But they are still there for me to see, to help me recall if the time ever comes that I need to do so. I'm in such a different place than I was when I started this blog, these letters to you. That's what happens with time. It changes us, molds us into someone else - not fully ourselves anymore, but still so much of our essence is the same. I'm ready to start blogging again and hope to eventually become a published author. But since I'm in a different place I feel it best to start a new blog, and put this one officially to rest. I love you, Tommy. I miss you. I'm living a life you would be proud of and I'm so thankful for all the blessings you brought into my life both before and after you left this world. For those looking for my new blog, it's called "I'm Not Martha," and you can find it here: ~Katie